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Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Spirituality ... Zen ...

Although I consider myself a fairly serious Zen practitioner (I sit zazen for 2 hours every week at the local zendo, and I occasionally attend a mini-sesshin), I’ve been remiss in attending “daisan” or “doksaun”, i.e. the regular face-to-face meeting with the teacher. Given how important these meetings are within the Zen tradition, perhaps the truth is that I’m just not such a serious Zen practicioner; perhaps I am ultimately doing my own thing, making my own kind of Zen. Which the great Zen traditionalists would say is no Zen at all (Zen tradition – a bit of an oxymoron?).

Well, my own Zen is certainly a Zen somewhat detached from the koans. I have much respect for all those enigmatic little stories, and have made effort to study and learn from them. But as to being on a traditional multi-year course of formal koan interpretation under the tutilidge of a certified teacher . . . no, that’s not where I am right now.

Regardless, I do feel the occasional inspiration to sign up with the sensei and make the walk over to the interview room during the 3rd or 4th sitting for a short talk. Just this past Sunday (our main zazen happens on Sunday mornings) I had something I wanted the sensei to comment on.  »  continue reading …

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Saturday, October 20, 2012
Religion ... Science ... Spirituality ...

When the physicists at CERN in Europe more-or-less confirmed the discovery of the Higgs particle this past July 4, it made a big splash with the press (well . . . as big as a splash as a scientific discovery can make these day; just under the magnitude of Lady Gaga’s meat dress). The Higgs particle completed the picture of the sub-atomic world that has evolved over many decades into today’s Standard Model of particle physics. It helps to explain how and why some things in the universe have “mass”, i.e. the quality that requires a bit of force to initiate movement (relative movement — don’t forget Einstein here) of something with mass, continuing force to cause acceleration, and an opposing force to slow it down (i.e., the quality of inertia or momentum).

Well that’s nice, the typical educated layperson might say. So now we have photons that give us light and magnetism, electrons that give us electrical charge, gluons to hold the nuclei of atoms together, neutrinos that don’t do much of anything, and now Higgs particles to make certain stuff “massive”. Just peachy. If you’re really into it, you might also know that W and Z bosons help radioactive stuff to keep on glowing. That’s groovy (even if you don’t want to wear a radium watch these days — I actually had one as a kid!). But what is different because of all this? The world is still mostly the world we’ve always known; in a metaphysical sense, the world appears to be composed of a huge (if not infinite) void, with lots of little bullet-like things zipping around in it (photon, electrons, protons, various other fermions and bosons, now including the Higgs particle). Right?

Hmmm. If you stopped and read further in the more detailed articles about the Higgs discovery, you would know that the Higgs particle itself really isn’t all that important. The reason that the boffins are so interested in it is that reflects the existence of a “Higgs field”, a type of energy field that exists everywhere in equal strength (i.e., a “scalar field”, a field that imposes a quality as opposed to a directional force, as with magnetic fields). This field gives mass-containing “massive” particles (like the quarks that make up protons and neutrons, along with electrons, and even the ghostly neutrino) their “massive characteristics”; i.e. the tendency to need force to start moving relative to something else. And once moving, to require an opposing force to stop that relative movement. Somehow, this field constantly interacts with massive stuff (in quantum amounts defined by the Higgs particle — i.e., via “virtual Higgs particles”), and makes it act and respond to forces in appropriate ways.

That’s actually a rather profound notion. What it says  »  continue reading …

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Saturday, October 13, 2012
Brain / Mind ... Psychology ... Spirituality ...

Last week at the zendo, one of our members gave a talk about holotropic breathwork; the person in question was quite qualified to do this, as she has been practicing it for over 15 years and is now a group facilitator. I wasn’t familiar with that particular form of “bodywork”, so I listened with interest. It sounded quite interesting, especially the claim that holotropic breathers plumb the depths of the psyche and glean great personal and metaphysical insights — without expensive long-term talk therapy or the use of dangerous psychotropic drugs. And without any extraordinary life commitment; the typical breather attends a day-long session every two months, and that’s it. Hey, I’m all for personal and metaphysical insights without a repetitive and burdensome daily practice! So, like many of the other listeners at this talk, I was interested in signing up.

But before I signed on the dotted line, the quasi-scientist in me wanted to know how it worked. The other parts of me said, “oh come on, quasi-scientist, that kind of attitude is exactly what holotropic breathwork puts on hold”. It’s all about the Journey to the Center of the Mind (remember that cheezy song by Ted Nugent and the Amboy Dukes?).

Nonetheless, the quasi-scientist soon had me in front of a Google page typing in terms like breathwork and hyperventilation. Hyperventilation? It was made clear at the recent zendo talk that breathing fast for a good long time (around an hour) is the key to holotropic breathwork, the gateway to  »  continue reading …

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Sunday, August 19, 2012
Spirituality ... Zen ...

It’s time for an audio file! Yes, a real MP3! Well, not exactly a very good audio file. It’s a recording of me talking at a “practice circle” discussion at my local zendo recently. The quality isn’t all that good, given that the mini-recorder was buried in my front pocket and I wasn’t speaking into the mike. But with some clues herein provided, you might be able to make out most of what I said.

The topic of the discussion was a chapter from one of those typical “How to be a Zen Buddhist 101” books (i.e., “Buddhism, Is Not What You Think” by Steve Hagen; I would give this book 2 and 1/2 stars out of 5, basically “meh”, a bit condescending). The “sangha” was discussing one of the better chapters, regarding the idea that “serenity” is not simply going to a peaceful and beautiful place all by yourself and staring at your navel for hours on end, awaiting a great transcendent insight. Hagen, to his credit, makes the point that the serenity that Zen seeks is something much deeper, something that doesn’t evaporate when the lady at the checkout counter shorts you $5 in change, or someone runs a stop sign not far ahead of you while chatting away on their smart phone. True serenity is . . . well, darn if I know or could put it into words even if I did. If I ever do find out, I’ll get back to you.

The sangha was also pondering an old story previously discussed by our own “monk in charge”, Jeff, which was about an ancient Zen master who got framed unfairly for getting a girl pregnant. This old master obviously lost all his credentials as a monk and teacher. Instead of using that classic line from Martin Briley’s 1983 hit “Salt In My Tears”, i.e. “I never did it, no I won’t admit it”, the old monk just said “is that so?”. The girl’s parents gave the baby to the monk and said “you’re the daddy, so take good care of junior”. Again, all he said was “is that so?” The now-former monk and former-teacher was a stand-up guy, so he got a real job, got a crib, and raised the child. But then comes the twist to the story — about a year later, the girl ‘fessed up and pointed her finger at the real daddy. Her parents then charged over to the old master’s hut and said “give that child back, he’s not yours!!” The soon-to-be-restored monk and teacher handed over the child and said . . . wait for it . . . “IS THAT SO?”

We were also discussing the invocation we often use at the end of our zazen, i.e. “may we realize the Buddha Way together”. In my MP3 below, I share my own thoughts on all this, along with the question of “just what are we supposed to be doing or attaining with our minds when we sit in meditation for long periods?” The Zen teachers are mostly quiet on that point. But obviously, it has something to do with seeking out serenity in your life. So I briefly discuss the “big mind” idea and how modern neuroscience seems to affirm that meditation can create a well-integrated brain state, a form of consciousness that captures and includes everything that is going on in your head, and not just a particular area of current attention or worry. In theory, if you could take your “big mind” to the street, bring it “back to the city”, you would be a person who has it all together, who doesn’t argue with her or himself, and thus is less likely to argue and bicker with others. You would work to find common ground and understanding, even when the going gets tough.

So that’s what I’m blabbing on about for 5 minutes or so. PS, I get confused towards the end of my talk about the song “It’s Hard to Be a Saint in the City”. I forgot that it was written and originally recorded by Bruce Springsteen; I was thinking of the later cover version by David Bowie. One of the many ‘music mavens’ at the zendo helpfully corrects me, though! Enjoy.

Some Semi-Coherent Ramblings from an Eternal Student of Life

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Friday, August 17, 2012
Art & Entertainment ... Brain / Mind ... Spirituality ...

The other day, I posted a blog about modern scientific attempts to debunk the idea of God with attempts to explain everything — absolutely every darn thing that might possibly exist — through a self- selection process involving random trial and errors. I explained my own problems with this, pointing to a possible reduction ad absurdum, the same absurdity that scientists accuse the “God theory” of having.

But the world of science is attacking the notion of God on another front . . . and that is “the quiet voice deep within”, i.e. the personal experience that makes one think that there is “something more” than we know in the immediate sense. This is also called “the spiritual experience” or a “religious experience”, and it seems to be quite universal. People of all sorts from many different lands and cultures seem to report similar experiences. Evidence, some might say, that there must be a God; even though humans still fight idiotic wars over what the nature of this God must be.

But the brain scientists are fighting back, performing studies and publishing papers on why our brains make us have such experiences and interpret them as “transcendent”. They have come up with a variety of factors  »  continue reading …

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Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Brain / Mind ... Spirituality ...

I read an interesting thought recently in an article discussing medical science. It specifically applies to the question of how much testing and monitoring of the human body is desirable and ultimately beneficial, given the state of modern medicine (and in anticipation of the future state of medicine and medical practice). But I think it can apply to all things. Here is the quote:

Data is not Information
Information is not Knowledge
Knowledge is not Wisdom

Very interesting – four levels of human understanding: Data, Information, Knowledge and Wisdom. I won’t make a detailed attempt here to define these concepts. They obviously represent an attempt to bridge the gap between sensory inputs and the highest levels of mind-brain functioning regarding how we behave, how we make choices, and how we live our lives.

Actually, you could add “sensory inputs” as a level below “data”. I.e., you need to read a blood pressure meter with your eyes, or count your pulse through your fingers, before you have any “data”. And at the other end –  »  continue reading …

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Friday, May 4, 2012
Society ... Spirituality ...

I heard a news story on NPR the other day about the war in Afghanistan, and how many Afghan Army recruits aren’t literate; a lot of them don’t even know how to count. Wow, no numbers in their life! And yet, somehow life does goes on in the mountains of Afghanistan, despite the inability to formally distinguish between a pasture holding 9 sheep versus one holding 10.

It just goes to remind us that there are still a lot of places in the world where things are thought of and dealt with quite differently than here in the USA. Obviously, this should relate to the wisdom, or lack thereof, of continuing US military investment and “nation building” in a foreign land like Afghanistan.

But it also reminds me of the Zen tradition, which took root in lands not far from Afghanistan in ancient times, and somehow transplanted itself  »  continue reading …

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Friday, April 6, 2012
Personal Reflections ... Religion ... Spirituality ...

To repeat for the 856th time or so on this blog, I don’t consider myself to be a Christian, even less a Roman Catholic Christian . . . even though that is the religious tradition that I grew up in. On the other side of the coin, I don’t consider myself to be an anti-Christian or anti-Catholic, either. I have taken a spiritual path in my life that needs more leeway than the Catholics (and every other Christian community, for that matter) can provide.

And yet, I still respect the Christian / Catholic tradition. I acknowledge that it has imposed much suffering on certain people and groups over its history — it is a fallible human institution, despite what it believes about itself. And yet, for all its faults, I believe that it still preserves and presents some essential truths about humankind, plus the universe, and then ultimately God. I don’t fully agree with its theology of a Holy Trinity; but if the ultimate point of all its doctrine is to speak to the reality and existence of a loving and caring (and yet mysterious and ultimately unknowable) God, then Christianity and I still have some common ground.

So, I decided to tag along with my still very-Catholic brother this past Sunday to see a passion play put on by a high school group at a local parish. They call themselves “The Franciscan Mystery Players of Notre Dame Church” and are  »  continue reading …

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Saturday, March 10, 2012
Personal Reflections ... Spirituality ...

Dear Sandra,

OK, you’ve got me beat. I read your article (in the February-March Atlantic) about why you want your father to die. I went through a similar situation with my mother between 2000 and 2009. I never actually wished for her to die, but portions of my subconscious did toy with the notion at times. I’m sure that my brother had a similar mental struggle, but even more so, given that he actually lived with her and took care of her each day over those nine years. He went though a lot of angst in the first few years as his life and his freedom were mostly taken away. During one clumsy wheelchair episode during the first year, he threatened to kill me.

His day and night revolved around Mom’s growing needs. I lived 10 miles away and went on with my life mostly as before (except during the emergencies and hospital stays); with the caveat that a portion of my take home-pay was no longer mine, needed for the homecare assistants that allowed my brother to continue working and maintain some semblance of a social life. In the end I was out $175,000. Not quite the half million that you cite, but if you include the cash that my brother contributed, plus the insurance premiums we paid since 1985 to maintain a long-term care policy, you get into the 500K ballpark.

So yes, my brother and I paid some elder care dues. But no, not quite the level that  »  continue reading …

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Saturday, February 4, 2012
Spirituality ...

At my zendo, I fill the role of the ‘science guy’. The majority of our sangha are either artists, therapists, teachers, or are at least hugely interested in arts and culture. I’m more interested in evolution and quantum physics. But we all like to sit quietly in meditation. And even during our discussion sessions, no one seems to object when I bring up something from the scientific perspective (thus far, anyway).

So, it seems to be my responsibility to verse myself in the literature regarding the connections and interplay between Eastern spiritual tradition and modern science. Unfortunately, I haven’t seen a lot of good, thoughtful writings on that topic. There is of course Capra’s “Tao of Physics” and Lukav’s “Dancing Wu Li Masters”, but those seemed kind of mushy. They note the surface similarities between certain ancient Buddhist and Taoist doctrines and the wavy, abstract views of reality that science has developed over the past 80 years or so between relativity theory, quantum mechanics, chaos and fractal analysis, and the study of large on-going systems with their complexity, emergence and self-organization. But these authors beg the question as to whether the ancient sages were really on to something about the true nature of reality (and just how and why they gained such wisdom), or did they just get lucky in espousing a philosophy of life that worked in the world that they knew.

Not long ago, I got a recommendation from a sangha member who I greatly respect regarding the writings and thoughts of a Buddhist teacher named Wes Nisker. I checked out some of his  »  continue reading …

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