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Sunday, April 14, 2013
Personal Reflections ... Zen ...

In Zen practice, one of the most well known koans is the Dog-Mu story. At least that’s what I call it. In a nutshell, a Zen monk asks a master, “do dogs have Buddha nature?” Can they become enlightened, like the Buddha? (Or as the Buddhists on a deeper level might say, are they already enlightened as all humans are, but mostly don’t realize it yet, as most humans don’t?) The master’s answer was “mu”, which is sometimes taken to mean “no”. But “mu” is also taken to mean . . . all sorts of things. For serious Zen students who go thru a multi-year study of koans with a master teacher, the Mu koan is a big milestone. Supposedly, most students spend 3 to 6 months pondering it and offering various explications to their teachers, before the teacher will give a “pass” and let the student go on to a different koan.

I myself am not in a formal koan study at my zendo. I’m considered something of a rebel, someone not in the inner circles, albeit someone who is still valuable enough to be part of the mix. Our high command has no thought of sponsoring me as a future “sensei”, though. That bothered me for a few weeks, but I’ve learned to somehow get on with my life, along with my Zen practice (actually, the formula for my practice is that Zen = life and real life = real Zen). Nonetheless, I occasionally get out a random koan to ponder on my own, and I listen to our sensei discuss the meaning of various koans in his talks. Not too long ago he reflected on his own experiences studying the dog-mu koan under his own master. That got me to thinking on my own about the dog-mu koan.

I’ve heard that many students get hung up on the “mu” part of it; i.e., what the heck does the master mean  »  continue reading …

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Sunday, February 17, 2013
Current Affairs ... Society ... Zen ...

My Zen sangha (Clear Mountain Zen Center) has a web site where they post recorded mp3 files of the weekly “teisho”, i.e. the 10 minute talks usually given during the second sitting period by Sensei Carl Bachmann, or one of the senior teaching members. Last week, Sensei Bachmann’s talk reflected upon the movie “Zero Dark Thirty” in light of the First Buddhist Precept, i.e. “abstain from causing harm and taking life”. Actually, the Sensei was discussing the overall US effort to find and kill Osama Bin Laden, which is what Zero Dark Thirty fairly accurately portrays. The movie seems to have convinced him that evil truly exists. Some weeks ago he was considering re-writing our Gatha of Repentance as to expunge the term “evil karma”. But since ZDT, he is content with it.

So what did teacher Bachmann find to be the main evil of ZDT? I would have thought it was the September 11, 2001 attacks which killed 2,996 people, and also the other terror attacks carried out before and after that date by Al Qaeda against civilians in London, Madrid and throughout the Middle East. Those attacks appear to me to violate the First Precept in a huge and heinous fashion.

But no. The good Sensei felt that the covert US actions depicted in the movie, including the torture  »  continue reading …

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Saturday, January 26, 2013
Photo ... Zen ...

We just got through a week of real winter weather here in New Jersey, temps in the teens and low 20s and a bit of snow. It may not last; temps may hit 50 next week. We’re probably not through yet with snow and sub-freezing winds, but I get the feeling that we won’t have another full week of Arctic conditions here (well, “Arctic-ish”; I realize that in many places, the low 20’s are like a heat wave in January; it’s all relative).

While eating my steel-cut oatmeal this morning, I looked out the window and saw a scene in the front yard that said “WINTER”, loud and clear. So, here is a stone rabbit with snow between its ears, sitting in silent meditation like a frozen Buddha. Above him looms a remnant from the spring and summer before, some stalks of brown meadowgrass, framing his contemplative resolve. The shadows are long in the low winter sun, while the Buddha Rabbit transcends the autumn before and the spring and summer yet to come with the power of his simple being.

Simply existing, here and now — a power that we all share, as we are all Buddha!

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Sunday, December 23, 2012
Spirituality ... Zen ...

I made my usual Sunday morning trek this morning to my local zendo for our weekly zazen. The sensei gave a teisho (i.e., a “wisdom talk”, aka “sermon”) as he usually does. But he made a somewhat unusual observation today in his teisho. He said that he recently decided during one of our sitting periods to observe the sangha members around him, as they sat on their cushions and focused their over-active minds on breath, as per his teachings (even if it was OK for him to take a break from it as to look around). He noticed how serious everyone looked; he described our expressions as being “like people in a cancer ward”.

Yes, well . . . sitting in silence, a person can sometimes sense the texture of being, of sheer existence itself. (That is, if the meditator is not looking around at her or his fellow meditators). One can almost hear the clock of one’s life ticking. One comes face to face with one’s mortality. It is serious business.

But according to our teacher (and his friend, a fellow sensei from a sister Zen sangha in the next county), we should focus on joy during our sittings; we should be smiling.  »  continue reading …

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Friday, December 7, 2012
Religion ... Spirituality ... Zen ...

I was once a practicing Catholic who went to Mass every Sunday. However, it’s kind of difficult to be a modern, somewhat-well educated adult in the USA these days and still put up with the Big Catholic Church and all its quaint, antiquarian / medieval ways. So, for a while I became a practicing Episcopalian who attended Eucharist every Sunday. That was OK for a while, but at some point the whole idea of Christianity seemed . . . well, something of a mythologically-based approach to God, too heavily mythological.

For a while then I also tried being a practicing Quaker, one who went to the Meeting every Sunday. The Friends were OK, I liked the silent meditation . . . it was just that there wasn’t enough of it (people keep getting up to talk when you’re supposed to be sitting in silence). And there was something rather quaint about the whole Quaker set-up too, a bit stuck in the world of George Fox in 17th Century England and William Penn in 18th Century Philadelphia. Sometimes even pacifism can be a cop-out . . .

Thus, for quite a while, I just sat home on Sundays. But I didn’t feel right about that either. So now I’m a member of a Zen sangha that sits zazen every Sunday. Not that I find Zen to be without its own quaintness and mythology. We still pay homage and pay to the Buddha and his followers. But then again, I never heard anyone at the zendo say that we are Buddhists, and that we “believe” in Buddhism. That’s the nice thing about Zen; i.e., it rejects all “ism’s”, and all “ist” thinking. It is not an accident that there is no “Zenism”, and that we don’t call ourselves “Zenists”.

Nonetheless, most Zen leaders (we still have “teachers” and priests and leaders; Zen does not seem to overcome the needs of the ego) appear to  »  continue reading …

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Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Spirituality ... Zen ...

Although I consider myself a fairly serious Zen practitioner (I sit zazen for 2 hours every week at the local zendo, and I occasionally attend a mini-sesshin), I’ve been remiss in attending “daisan” or “doksaun”, i.e. the regular face-to-face meeting with the teacher. Given how important these meetings are within the Zen tradition, perhaps the truth is that I’m just not such a serious Zen practicioner; perhaps I am ultimately doing my own thing, making my own kind of Zen. Which the great Zen traditionalists would say is no Zen at all (Zen tradition – a bit of an oxymoron?).

Well, my own Zen is certainly a Zen somewhat detached from the koans. I have much respect for all those enigmatic little stories, and have made effort to study and learn from them. But as to being on a traditional multi-year course of formal koan interpretation under the tutilidge of a certified teacher . . . no, that’s not where I am right now.

Regardless, I do feel the occasional inspiration to sign up with the sensei and make the walk over to the interview room during the 3rd or 4th sitting for a short talk. Just this past Sunday (our main zazen happens on Sunday mornings) I had something I wanted the sensei to comment on.  »  continue reading …

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Sunday, September 30, 2012
Brain / Mind ... Psychology ... Technology ... Zen ...

I just found out about the Flynn Effect. The Flynn Effect is all about “psychometrics”, i.e. the measurement of human intelligence. About 28 years ago, a New Zealand sociology researcher who specializes in intelligence issues (whose last name is Flynn, not surprisingly) noticed that IQ scores have been rising steadily since at least the late 1940s, possibly since 1932. This effect has been taking place for both the highest and lowest scoring groups, as well as the middle. In effect, every new generation seems to be smarter than the one preceding it. That effect goes on today. I got out of college in 1975, so the class of 2012 has me and my peers beat by quite a bit — around 12 points (the effect is about 1/3 IQ point per year).

According to a recent Scientific American article (which brought me up to speed on this issue), the Flynn effect has been driven by one specific component of the IQ tests. It is not the component for arithmetic skills, nor the component for vocabulary skills; these scores have only gone up a bit over the past 60-odd years. The big jump is in “similarities”, the measurements of “fluid intelligence”. These are the tricky questions that attempt to gage a person’s “abstract intelligence”, the ability to see patterns (according to someone’s judgment about what patterns are important to see). I.e., which of the following animals is least like the others: orangutan, anteater, skunk and zebra; or BOOM is to 4267 as ZOOK is to (choose one): 3902, 54892, 3319 . . . or Mary is 16 years older than her brother, and is four times her sister’s age; if her sister was born two years before her brother, then . . . (these are not real IQ questions, of course).

Interestingly, the Sci Am article points out that Dr. Flynn and others feel that the Flynn Effect reflects changes in what society expects from us, both in  »  continue reading …

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Sunday, August 19, 2012
Spirituality ... Zen ...

It’s time for an audio file! Yes, a real MP3! Well, not exactly a very good audio file. It’s a recording of me talking at a “practice circle” discussion at my local zendo recently. The quality isn’t all that good, given that the mini-recorder was buried in my front pocket and I wasn’t speaking into the mike. But with some clues herein provided, you might be able to make out most of what I said.

The topic of the discussion was a chapter from one of those typical “How to be a Zen Buddhist 101” books (i.e., “Buddhism, Is Not What You Think” by Steve Hagen; I would give this book 2 and 1/2 stars out of 5, basically “meh”, a bit condescending). The “sangha” was discussing one of the better chapters, regarding the idea that “serenity” is not simply going to a peaceful and beautiful place all by yourself and staring at your navel for hours on end, awaiting a great transcendent insight. Hagen, to his credit, makes the point that the serenity that Zen seeks is something much deeper, something that doesn’t evaporate when the lady at the checkout counter shorts you $5 in change, or someone runs a stop sign not far ahead of you while chatting away on their smart phone. True serenity is . . . well, darn if I know or could put it into words even if I did. If I ever do find out, I’ll get back to you.

The sangha was also pondering an old story previously discussed by our own “monk in charge”, Jeff, which was about an ancient Zen master who got framed unfairly for getting a girl pregnant. This old master obviously lost all his credentials as a monk and teacher. Instead of using that classic line from Martin Briley’s 1983 hit “Salt In My Tears”, i.e. “I never did it, no I won’t admit it”, the old monk just said “is that so?”. The girl’s parents gave the baby to the monk and said “you’re the daddy, so take good care of junior”. Again, all he said was “is that so?” The now-former monk and former-teacher was a stand-up guy, so he got a real job, got a crib, and raised the child. But then comes the twist to the story — about a year later, the girl ‘fessed up and pointed her finger at the real daddy. Her parents then charged over to the old master’s hut and said “give that child back, he’s not yours!!” The soon-to-be-restored monk and teacher handed over the child and said . . . wait for it . . . “IS THAT SO?”

We were also discussing the invocation we often use at the end of our zazen, i.e. “may we realize the Buddha Way together”. In my MP3 below, I share my own thoughts on all this, along with the question of “just what are we supposed to be doing or attaining with our minds when we sit in meditation for long periods?” The Zen teachers are mostly quiet on that point. But obviously, it has something to do with seeking out serenity in your life. So I briefly discuss the “big mind” idea and how modern neuroscience seems to affirm that meditation can create a well-integrated brain state, a form of consciousness that captures and includes everything that is going on in your head, and not just a particular area of current attention or worry. In theory, if you could take your “big mind” to the street, bring it “back to the city”, you would be a person who has it all together, who doesn’t argue with her or himself, and thus is less likely to argue and bicker with others. You would work to find common ground and understanding, even when the going gets tough.

So that’s what I’m blabbing on about for 5 minutes or so. PS, I get confused towards the end of my talk about the song “It’s Hard to Be a Saint in the City”. I forgot that it was written and originally recorded by Bruce Springsteen; I was thinking of the later cover version by David Bowie. One of the many ‘music mavens’ at the zendo helpfully corrects me, though! Enjoy.

Some Semi-Coherent Ramblings from an Eternal Student of Life

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Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Psychology ... Zen ...

Our zendo group (sangha) recently discussed a koan story about a lady who heard a lecture from a wise teacher about how one might find “a Buddha of light” in one’s mind and heart, an infinite enlightenment within one’s own body, a light that would make everything you encounter seem to glow. So, the woman takes this to heart and a few days later she has a religious experience while washing a pot. Everything started to glow for her. So she ran over and found the great teacher and told him about it. He tried to deflate her a bit by asking if the smelly pit beneath an outhouse would also glow for her. She slapped him and called him an old fart (just to play off the teacher’s eschatalogical theme, I guess). He got a laugh out of that. End of story.

Turns out that all of this has something to do with happiness. Or so said the guy who wrote the book that we are studying, a Zen teacher named John Tarrant (book entitled “Bring Me the Rhinoceros”). Roshi Tarrant’s challenges his readers by asking “Are You Afraid of Happiness?” He sums it up by saying “when you are not afraid to forget who you are, life in the kitchen or life in the office might contain huge and overwhelming happiness [assumedly, one’s life in the smelly outhouse might also qualify . . . just to push this koan’s gastro-eschatology to the limit!] . . . when you are not afraid of your own happiness, you don’t get in its way”.

Happiness is an interesting word. The more you think about it, the less you understand it. If you try to  »  continue reading …

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