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Sunday, August 17, 2003
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BLACKOUT SERMON: It’s Sunday morning, and being a former churchgoer, that puts me in the mood for a sermon. So that’s what I’m gonna write today. A sermon about the Blackout of 2003.

It’s pretty clear now that the Blackout is related to DEREGULATION. Ah yes, deregulation, one of the pillars of the modern Republican world that we’ve been in since 1968. (Jimmy Carter? A temporary aberration. Bill Clinton? A Republican in drag.) Since the 1970s, the free-market business Republicans have convinced us that regulation of key industries like communications, finance, transportation and power are no longer needed. They gave plenty of reasons why deregulation would benefit the common man, but in the end they were trying to line their own pockets. And line them they did. Isn’t it time to turn the tide a bit?

In the power industry, the government regulators (FERC and the state commissions) once sought to maintain high levels of reliability by granting the power companies limited monopolies and in return requiring them to act nice — i.e., don’t gouge the public so as to make outrageous profits. Part of this agreement meant that the power companies would set up very reliable systems to generate and distribute electric power, so as to avoid all of the chaos that a big power outage causes. Who gets socked with the bill for all the added power lines and equipment that sit idle most of the time but come in handy when Murphy’s Law comes calling? The consumer, through higher electric bills. But, again, under regulation, the power companies only get to tack on enough profit on their investment to raise capital. And the consumer gets to avoid the fun of being stranded when the power goes down, and paying higher taxes to cover all the police overtime and other emergency costs needed to avoid looting and such. So, your electricity bill goes up a buck or two a month, but maybe it’s worth it.

BY COMPARISON: under DEREGULATION, as we have it today, the consumer pays a little bit less, and the rich people who are the biggest corporate investors make a whole lot more. Any wonder why they vote Republican and send big checks to support Republican political candidates? The deregulated power companies, acting on behalf of their investors, buy just enough power lines and equipment to maximize their profits. If that means a big blackout every so many months, well, that’s not their problem. They don’t pay the bill caused by civic chaos and having the rest of the economy shut down for a day or two. Economists call this the “internal versus external cost” problem.

Another problem with DEREGULATION is instability. Even if power company investors decide to take a long-term view and do the right thing, they may not be able to raise the money to buy the stuff that will avoid the next big blackout. Why not? Because the bankers and investors are still all freaked out about some big bankruptcy or something. Something like ENRON. (Financial deregulation doesn’t help either.)

I’m not a socialist; I know that free markets promote innovation and when they work correctly, pass the benefits on to the consumer. But dang, there are just too many times when they don’t work right. And that’s when government needs to get involved. But over the past 30 years, the Republicans have told the little folk that all government is bad and the little folk have swallowed it, hook, line and sinker. The Republicans have given the little folk their cell phones and $100 tax rebates in return for their votes, and have retreated to their mansions to call their accountants and watch the profits roll in. We are clearly living in an era of entrenched wealth once again, something like the “Roaring 20’s” (and you know where that led). It’s the little people who went along with it all by electing Nixon and Reagan and Bush and Bush (and Clinton — let’s be honest about the honorary Republican category).

And they are the ones who now have to deal with the mess left behind by this deregulated, small-government world. They are the ones who often can’t get proper health coverage, they are the ones who spend hours trying to get through an automated answering system to straighten out some important thing and avoid being thrown in to bankruptcy and becoming homeless, they are the ones who can’t get proper help if they have a retarded child or a crippled grandparent. They are the ones who swim in polluted public beaches, while the rich folk jet off to pristine shores in the western Pacific. The world is great if you’re healthy and attractive and have a good job that pays. But let just one or two little things go wrong, let your bank account get drawn down and your credit card accounts puffed up, and you’re thrown to the dogs.

Really, does it have to be this way? DEREGULATION and lack of good health insurance is a big part of the whole Republican scheme, but I’ve noticed a whole lot of other little things that go with the flow. One little example: credit cards. I’ve almost always paid my credit card bills on time. In 25 years, I had two late payments, both just by a few days because of a vacation or a delay in the US Mail. One was about 20 years ago, back in the early 80s. I got hit with a small interest charge, maybe a dollar or two. My second one was last month. I got hit with about the same small interest charge, maybe two dollars, PLUS a $30 LATE FEE. Now when was that policy started? Another little example: trying to renew my anti-virus updates, I noticed that if you want to order it by phone, you get hit with a $10 FEE, because you have to talk to somebody.

And don’t even get me started about the way that people drive these days. I’m old enough to know that it wasn’t always so aggressive. Once upon a time, cooperation and tolerance were the norm when people got in their cars.

This world is really starting to get UGLY. Should we go back to the old Democrat days of the ‘40s and 60s when labor unions had a lot of power and there were lots of government regulations and not as many people were rich or near-rich? Yea, there were plenty of bad things about those days, including stupid, greedy labor unions that caused a lot of American jobs to go overseas because of their inflexibility. Today we have a lot more consumer choices, things that couldn’t even be dreamed of back then (like laptops and hand-helds and portable mp3 players and DVDs and air-conditioning everywhere). But we also had people who answered the phone when you called the bank or doctors office or insurance company or motor vehicles bureau. The average slob seemed to get a little more respect. Finding a job wasn’t such a horrendous process (and you didn’t lose your old one so quickly). You didn’t seem to fall off the edge so fast when something bad happened to you.

It’s a question of balance, obviously. Maybe the pendulum did swing too far towards socialism and economic stagnation in the 60s. And a lot of people got scared when the Democrats got too aggressive about civil rights (NOT to the credit of those people) and started moving away from “old fashioned Christian values”. But can’t we see that it’s time to move a little bit back towards the center, towards the middle ground, a middle ground where government would do a lot, but not too much. Taxes might be higher, but you’d be sure that Social Security was there when you need it. Where being rich isn’t the answer to everything, and isn’t seen as the only way to live a good life?

Most people today seem absolutely convinced that you’ve got to struggle fiercely to get all you can economically, even if you have to cut some throats, because otherwise you’re gonna get thrown into the gutter. Can’t we put some safety nets back into the system, so that we can all calm down a bit, and maybe get back to acting human towards each other? Can’t we make a decent middle-class life the standard to shoot for, instead of shooting for a McMansion up in the woods? Can’t we start driving sensible and efficient cars again instead of huge monster trucks, even if that means that we might have to sit home for a few hours during a snowstorm while the government gets the roads plowed? Can’t we stop the trucking industry from taking over the Interstates with huge high-speed trucks that crash big time and usually take a few average motorists down with them? (A lot of the railroad lines that once hauled the freight are now abandoned — guess why? — yep, deregulation). Can’t we start trusting in the commonweal a little more?

Think about it during the next blackout or terrorist attack. (The next blackout may be both).

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Thursday, August 14, 2003
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Yes, I just experienced the great eastern blackout of 2003. My first inkling of the problem came when I talking with my boss at around 4 and the lights started blinking on and off. When I got outside, I saw that the traffic lights weren’t working. I took the train to work today, as I do once a week, and wouldn’t you know, no train service home — I walked up to the station and it was quieter than a New Years morning. But there is a bus that goes near my house, so I went over to the stop and waited for about a half hour amidst a nervous crowd. After two of those busses passed without stopping, I opted for third best, a bus that gets within 2 miles of home. The ride was slow and the walk was long and hot, but I made it.

It looked like it was going to be a candle-light evening without the Internet, but just after9 pm the refrigerator started rumbling and all the little red lights on my consumer electronics lit up. Twenty-first century techno-civilization was back in my neighborhood. Cool. But let this be a reminder. 21st century techno-civilization is still a very frail thing, something that can disappear in the blink of an eye. This time it was just a lightening bolt in Niagara Falls, but next time it could be a rocket-propelled grenade launched by a terrorist. The deep, terrible dark night, which I saw along my street just a half hour ago, is never all that far away. (And the lights are still flickering a bit here).

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Tuesday, August 12, 2003
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Here’s a quick follow-up to last Sunday’s thoughts on the African-American culture. I recently read a book by Bertice Berry called “The Haunting of Hip Hop”. Ms. Berry is a black author and PhD in sociology who writes from a black perspective, or more accurately, from her own version of a black perspective. And hey, that’s fine by me. The “Hip Hop” story revolves around a successful rap music producer in Manhattan who becomes haunted by the ghosts of African-American history. As a rationalistic white guy, I found it all a bit over the top. Nevertheless, Berry was out to make some valid points. She doesn’t exactly give white folk much slack, but then again, what the heck. The book was not written for me, but for African American youth who need a stronger sense of their ethnic heritage and a greater pride in even the more eccentric features of it.

Even if this wasn’t the most edifying book I’ve ever read, there were still some pearls of wisdom to be found in it. For example: “by the time you know how to spend your years, you find that you done already wasted them.” So true. Another one: “what don’t work out for you in this life will have to work out in someone else’s”. Hmm, there’s something to ponder.

The book comes with a set of 15 discussion questions at the end. They are aimed at inquiring young minds, and that’s a good thing. Maybe this book ain’t exactly for me, but it will help a lot of others. More power to ya, Dr. Berry.

But next time, back to the un-real world: that recent article on the nature of time by Peter Lynds, a college drop-out from New Zealand who has the world of academic physics buzzing. Did this guy really say anything new? Stay tuned.

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Sunday, August 10, 2003
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Once upon a time, a lot of people thought of America as a sociological “melting pot”, a place where everyone could easily gave up the language and heritage of their ancestors and became red-blooded Americans. This really isn’t (or wasn’t) such a new idea. As with many things about America, this was tried many centuries ago in the Roman Empire. Back in the second and third centuries, you could relinquish your past, whether as an Egyptian, a Syrian, a Turk, a Greek, an Algerian, a Spaniard, a Brit, or even a Frenchman, and simply be a Roman. Even though you’d still look like someone from Africa or England or the Middle East, the powers that be in Rome would treat you like one of them, so long as you wanted to be one of them, and would speak their language (good old Latin).

Of course, most Americans today don’t have much regard for the Roman Empire or Greek Civilization, even though those things are the blueprints for America, like it or not. Until the late 1950s, the education system made sure that everyone knew something about the ancient Romans and Greeks. However, by 1960, the focus in the schools shifted to math and science. Why teach kids about the past, when America’s future lies in the miracle of science and technology?

Yea, we now see how far that idea got us; we have a world with plenty of information technology, but not much wisdom. I think it’s time to start learning something about the ancient Romans and Greeks again. Those who ignore the past are doomed to repeat it. We sure seem to be going down the road of repetition these days.

Nevertheless, let’s go back to the American melting pot theory. A lot of immigrant groups have gone along with the cultural melting process, but some just didn’t. Or not to the same degree, anyway. Perhaps the biggest example is the African-American culture. Despite the fact that many or perhaps even most African-Americans today just want to live normal American middle-class lives, African-Americans are still recognized as a very distinctive component of American culture. And yes, I know that there is a long history of oppression and injustice involved with that. But for now, I’m just looking at the surface. If you came from Pluto as an interplanetary Alexis de Tocqueville to do a study on America in the early 21st Century, you’d keep hearing a lot about “blacks” or African Americans. You’d get more buzz about them more than about Irish-Americans or Chinese-Americans or German-Americans or even Hispanic-Americans (although Hispanics also maintain a distinct and noticeable cultural identity).

In a lot of ways, the continuing cultural distinctiveness of Black America reflects continued injustice and closed-mindedness on the part of the majority cultures. And that’s something to be regretted. Having said that, let me say that I myself rather enjoy the ongoing cultural distinctiveness that African-Americans maintain. Sure, it’s too bad about all the frictions and bad feelings that result sometimes because of this, but there’s something about being black that’s just too good to be melted away into the American soup. I have heard stories about white people (like myself) who have left the highly integrated east coast urban areas to live out in Indiana or Wyoming, so that they won’t have any blacks around them. That makes me cringe. No African-Americans around? Sounds extremely bland.

Yes, I know that certain African-American leaders might criticize what I say here as a form of plantation mentality, like the old notion that “darkies are very entertaining, just so long as we keep them in their place”. Sort of an Amos and Andy thing. To which I reply, I think that blacks have just as much of a place at Yale, Princeton, Microsoft, the Senate and the Space Shuttle as anyone of my ancestral culture. But despite continuing progress and achievement, the African-American culture is still maintaining a cultural distinctiveness, and I like it.

Here’s an example. This past week I went to a funeral service for the father of an African-American executive from my workplace. The deceased was an attorney who served as a municipal judge, worked for several years with Thurgood Marshall (first black US Supreme Court Judge) in desegregation efforts, and was generally a pillar of his community. The officiates of the funeral were, not surprisingly, black. And actually, most of the service wasn’t all that different from any of the white funerals I’ve been to. But at one point, actually two, a handsome man with a good voice went to the podium to sing a gospel song (one was Amazing Grace, I forget the other). He did it with a mixture of flair and dignity, adding an occasional smile and even a gesture at the decedent lying there in the coffin. Perhaps the Rev. Al Green got started like that. But hey, I thought, there’s an interesting idea — a bit of entertainment during a funeral. It made the whole thing, well, not so funereal. It was just another one of those little ways that blacks sometimes and somehow touch something fundamental about life, in a way that no one else seems able to.

Let me offer one more funeral-based example, courtesy of Flannery O’Connor, the southern short story writer from the 1950s. O’Connor was very white, and strangely enough for a southerner, a Roman Catholic. You’d wonder how a Roman Catholic could touch the essence of the American South such as Faulkner could. And yet she did. Part of her charm was her Roman Catholicness and the odd contrast between her spirituality and the Baptist and Pentecostal spirit of those around her. But what really made her stories effective were blacks. Here’s a quick taste from “You Can’t Be Any Poorer Than Dead”, one of O’Connor’s typically weird plots about a teenage white boy who lived out in some southern tarshack with his uncle. The uncle dies one hot day, and the kid didn’t want to dig the hole to properly bury his uncle; instead he went to a still and got drunk. An old black man who happened along the way saw this and finished the internment. The man later confronted the drunken kid, saying: “This ain’t no way for you to act. Old man don’t deserve this … he was deep in this life, he was deep in Jesus’ misery.”

Am I saying that whites should uncritically embrace all that is “black”, including 50 Cent and other expressions of irresponsible sexuality and violence? No, I’m not. Probably more than 50% of blacks don’t embrace that stuff either. Am I saying that informed and concerned whites should practice a form of hyper-political correctness and never bring up statistics about continuing problems within the African-American culture, e.g. high rates of male incarceration and one-parent families despite much government assistance over the past 40 years? No, the truth must be dealt with. But I am promoting open-mindedness, and I am saying that my own open-mindedness to the African-American culture (which is very imperfect and late-blooming) has been mostly a good thing, something I’d heartily recommend to all my fellow Americans of European heritage (or any heritage, for that matter).

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Sunday, August 3, 2003
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People have various different theories about what life is all about. Some say it’s love. Some say it’s family. Some say it’s fun. Some say it’s money. Some say it’s power. Some say it’s beauty. Some seek “inner peace”. Philosophers come up with various other words and phrases based up various intellectual abstractions, like Pirsig‘s “quality”. Some philosophers say life is really out there, while others say it’s all in the mind. Psychologists agree with the latter, but want to know what the mind is getting at. And scientists, well, they’ll tell you about DNA and emergent self-organizing phenomenon and organic chemistry and evolutionary dynamics. So, life must be a pretty big thing, sort of like the elephant that 10 blind men touch and describe as 10 different things (none of them an elephant; e.g. the guy who grips the tail thinks it’s a snake, the guy with the ear thinks it’s a bird, etc.).

The word about life that works best for me is “intensity”. That word comes closest to summing up all of my longings and desires and frustrations in life. It seems able to corral most of the things that have been good for me and hold out most of the things that have been bad over the past 50 years. So yes, I’m an intensity junkie. In different ways, I think that we all are. Intensity for women often isn’t intensity for men, and vice versa. But both want to feel intense. For many women, intensity can be found in hearth and home and kinder. A lot of men get intense about sports, career achievement and status. Oh yea, and sometimes mechanical stuff, like cars or boats or stereos. Of course, there is some common ground. Like music. Both men and women get intense vibes when good music is being played. And money — although men alone seem to get satisfaction from the mere presence of dinero. Women generally seem to get intense about money only when it’s being traded for stuff, preferably stuff they like. And then there’s books and ideas and thinking. Certain men and women can get into that (but not enough, in my opinion).

And then there’s sexuality, of course. Sex is intensity city, at least when you’re young and full of the hormones that nature gave you in order to encourage your participation in the continuance of the species.

(Yes, I guess I’m not in a romantic mood right now).

So, what else inspires people and how do they relate to “intensity”? Well, political power makes certain people do extreme things. Sure, we all love to have power. How about fame? Oh yea, fame is a big inspiration too. People feel pretty intense when they know that a whole lot of people take them seriously. It’s quite an affirmation when a thousand or a million or a billion people know about you. Me, I’m still struggling in the 30 to 50 people range. I guess that fame is not going to be my path to intensity. For some people, achievement is the thing. Achievement often comes with power and fame and money, but sometimes it doesn’t. I think there are some pure examples of people who have achieved their life’s calling without gaining fame and fortune and power, and still feel pretty intense about it. Perhaps a guy who has managed to collect every baseball card from 1920 to present. He probably has some great stories about how he found that ’52 Duke Snider by accident in a dumpy old book store on the outskirts of Tulsa. It was his life work, even if he never even made the local newspaper.

Intensity doesn’t last. I’d guess that on average, most folk feel intense about life maybe 1 of every 50 hours that they are awake. Maybe some folk do better, and some worse.

Movies are popular because they make people feel intense for a little while. The arts in general are like that. When done well, an artist makes the viewer feel intense for a spell. Maybe the artist feels intense too.

Is there intensity at work? Maybe, but the conditions have to be just right. You have to be challenged, not bored. The task can’t be beyond your abilities, or you’ll get frustrated (I’ve been there). Also, it’s good when you know that what you’re doing is useful, that it’s helping someone somehow. Unfortunately, that right mix of things isn’t guaranteed. Too many people just work for the money, and seldom feel intense about what they’re doing. I’ve had some intense work days, but most of my work life has either been boring or chaotic or otherwise out of whack with regard to intensity.

Can you be sick or in fear or angry or confused and be intense? Well, sickness and fear and anger and confusion are intense experiences, but I sure don’t like them. But for some people, maybe that’s their only road to intensity. I think that one of Warren Zevon’s songs has a line that goes “I’d rather feel bad than feel nothing at all”. I guess it explains all of the gory horror movies that are out there. Some people seem to enjoy the feeling they get by watching other people treated like animals, slaughtered, mutilated, burned, crushed, humiliated, tortured, whatever. I guess it qualifies as a form of intensity, sort of a voyeuristic sadism.

There are short cuts to intensity, and they often aren’t good ones. Addictions are an example of intensity gone awry. Booze and drugs make you feel intense, very intense for a while. But the price you pay is extremely large (I’m not going to say “high” here). Food can also be an addiction. I know people who eat too much because that’s their easiest available source of intensity. The richest, most intense foods are often the most salty and fattening ones. A few moments of intensity are traded for a lifetime of obesity (and all the problems brought on by that). And promiscuous sex also gives you a quick hit of intensity followed by a big let-down. You know it ain’t real, you know it feels less intense each time.

So, wisdom and intensity are not always on the same page. Wisdom, I think, relates to intensity, but from a long-term perspective. It adds in considerations of other people and their access to intensity, e.g. your children, your husband or wife, your relatives, your neighbors, your fellow citizens and fellow planet dwellers.

But the big question for everyone is, just how much do I live for and trust others, whether abstract and organized (e.g., the US Government) or familiar and immediate (e.g. your parents). Does paying your taxes make you feel intense? Probably not. Does helping your child calm down after she or he has fallen and is all upset and crying make you feel intense? Perhaps.

If intensity is the essence of life, then the question remains, how best to get it. Intensity is really a deep philosophic question. It’s actually a rather mysterious thing (just like life itself). Too much of it isn’t good, and too little isn’t good either. You can try to buy it and store it up for the future, but it doesn’t always keep. What was intense for you yesterday may not be intense today; GROWTH and CHANGE must also be factored into the intensity calculation. And of course, relationship must be accounted for; when you experience something good with someone else, the intensity is usually amplified.

Well, so I have my own word for life, and it seems like a pretty good one. If intensity is the true key to life and not money or fame or achievement, then maybe there’s hope for all of us. Finding intensity without much money or fame or achievement doesn’t seem easy. Nonetheless, the search must go on, because maybe only 1 out of 10 people are going to have a whole lot of money or fame or achievement in life. If we can figure out how to have an intense life without all of that stuff, then maybe the billions of us who go to our graves without any great fanfare and are quickly forgotten will, nonetheless, have not lived and died in vain.

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Thursday, July 31, 2003
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I was out walking through town the other day, past some expensive new homes on the other side of a hill. They weren’t exactly mansions; a two-earner professional couple could possibly swing such a place with today’s low mortgage rates. I gather that families that buy such houses become quite attached to them. I myself have never owned real estate, but from what I’ve been told, ownership gives people a strong sense of connection to their homestead. And I guess that’s good in a lot of ways. But as for me, I like the idea of home being a movable concept, something not tied to any one structure or plot of land. That notion jibes well with the fact that we aren’t permanent residents of this planet. If we’re lucky, we get 70 or 80 years here, but they go by pretty quickly. I’m still holding out hope that we are citizens of a larger reality, something that transcends the space-time universe that we know of. I’m still thinking that our bittersweet years here are mainly a preparation course for something bigger and better.

I once read an article about some groovy Jesuit priest who had his own apartment somewhere and slept every night on a couch; he didn’t have a regular bed. That was his style. And actually, that sounds like my kind of style (although I have a regular bed but not a couch!). That priest seems to be the kind of guy who doesn’t put too much effort into making a nest for himself here in this realm, as he believes that his true home is somewhere else. You would have hoped that all priests and all spiritual seekers would have been like that. But in reality, there ain’t all that many like that. Oh well, too bad. Wrong planet I’m on, I guess. But it ain’t gonna be forever, for better and for worse.

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Sunday, July 27, 2003
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Two more observations about why people are happy or not in this world. First thought: unfortunately, a lot actually does depend upon your body and how it looks. Certain jobs and certain situations in life — actually, quite a few — do indeed require a certain look. Let’s face it, there are certain cultural notions defining beauty or handsomeness, and there are certain jobs that require it. Certain combinations of body height, girth, shoulder width, muscle angularity or skin curves, facial shape, angles of the chin, tone of voice, behavior of the eyes, etc. make a lot of difference in how people judge you. It ain’t really fair when you think about it, but that’s how it is.

Cultural norms are powerful thing, right or wrong. Certain women just aren’t going to get jobs as entertainers or clothing models or airline stewards, even if they are intelligent, well mannered and poised. Certain guys just aren’t going to be CEOs or submarine commanders or the President of the United States. For example, compare George W. Bush with VP Cheney. Bush has the leadership look and Cheney doesn’t (even though I personally don’t have much confidence in either of them as leaders). Rumsfeld has the look, but Wolfowitz generally doesn’t. And yes, Bill Clinton had the look, but as to Al Gore …. just a bit too stocky. Perhaps Gore felt deeply called to leadership, but the importance of looks ultimately betrayed him (he was beat by a guy with a stonger chin line and a trimmer build). So, Al Gore isn’t going to be quite as happy with his life as he might have been had he a more dynamic looking body (“dynamic” according to our cultural notions). And if you don’t have the look, you may have to struggle harder for happiness in 21st Century America.

Second observation: Money. The great disequalizer. For better and for worse, our society and our economy decides what talents and abilities are less important and more important to it, and rewards everyone approximately. So, those people who are called to be file clerks, i.e. good organizers, are generally not going to get the same money and recognition as those who are called to be CEOs or trial attorneys. (And people who feel called to help the poor by becoming social workers are asking to become poor themselves, given the salary levels in the social work field). Then throw in the “look” factor, as discussed above, and things get really uneven. A dumpy looking guy who is good at organizing papers and information is, if lucky, going to get a steady $40,000 a year in some dumpy government bureaucracy, while an extroverted guy with a jaunty build and strong cheekbones and a Clinton-esque hairline who is pretty good at public speaking is going to become a trial lawyer making $250,000 a year. It just happens.

Why should one guy be worth $40,000 and little public recognition, and the other guy gets $250,000 and probably gets quoted in the papers and even makes the TV news? Who is happier? Hate to say it, but the lawyer dude is probably having a better time. He may well have too many toys (fancy car, big house, trophy wife, all sorts of high-tech gadgets) that ultimately don’t make him happy, but the challenge of his job and the recognition that he gets keeps him pumped. He probably “gives something back” by taking on volunteer cases for poor people or counseling seniors with legal questions, and that helps make him feel good. Life probably has given him the better hand of cards.

You might be tempted to say that “smartness” and intelligence justifies the way that things are. People with higher IQs generally do better then “dummies”. True enough, but the closer you look at what “intelligence” is, the fuzzier it becomes. I really think there are different kinds of intelligence, e.g. abstract intelligence, social intelligence, practical intelligence(Al Gore has much abstract intelligence, GWB has more social and practial), body intelligence (needed by sports stars and performers), etc. I still think, quite idealistically, that just about everyone is smart in some way, but that society rewards certain ways of being smart much differently than others. So it’s still not fair.

What’s the bottom line here? How can even the losers get lucky sometime and enjoy life? How can people who land in prison or are outcasts or drunks or drug addicts turn it around? Well, I haven’t figured that one out. But one thing I can say: when you realize just how arbitrary life and culture can be in deciding who is valuable and who isn’t, you realize that even if get the short end of the stick, it doesn’t really mean that you’re not worthy. If you can keep on believing in yourself even when the world around you doesn’t, you still have something going, an inner flame burning deep inside. With some people, the world stokes their inner fires; with others, it pours water on it. But even if so, don’t let the world blow it out.

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Thursday, July 24, 2003
Personal Reflections ...

The pursuit of happiness. That’s the theme for my “chatauqua” today.

(For those regular readers of this blog, God bless all 2 or 3 of you, you know that my writing style is similar in certain ways to Robert Pirsig’s Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance. Pirsig’s technique in ZAMM was to weave back and forth between the travelogue and a series of reflections on … well, on life in general. All things considered. He called his essays “chatauquas”, based on the intellectual road shows of the 19th century, which do in fact have something to do with the modern-day Chatauqua Institute in New York State.)

Based upon what I’ve observed during my fifty years here on earth, I think that some people are pretty happy with their lives, and some just aren’t. I mean that on a long-term basis; some people reach the age of 60, 70, maybe even 80 or 90 and keep on feeling good about things. Life generally makes sense to them, despite its many rough spots. By contrast, other people go through life unhappy all of the time. Things just don’t ever come together for them, and even when it does, things soon fall apart. It’s just one struggle to the next. And then they die, usually in an ugly way (very possibly from alcohol abuse or violence or cancer, or sometimes even suicide; being unhappy all the time takes its toll).

So what is the difference between these two types of people and the lives they lead? (Those of you who are students may be pondering that question, or some take-off on it, in your psychology and philosophy classes). Unfortunately, I don’t have any great insights about this. Human happiness obviously involves both genetic factors and the environment, i.e. nature and nurture. To some degree, happiness is influenced by the balance of chemicals in the brain. And yet, you are tempted to conclude that it’s the unhappy person’s own fault they are so unhappy; they just seem so negative about everything, and they pass up opportunities to be happy. On the other side of the coin, a lot of unhappy people are the victims of bad breaks, things that really were beyond their control.

Life in general certainly isn’t an equal opportunity employer. Some people do get mostly good breaks while others get mostly bad ones; the majority of people seem to get a 50-50 mix (or close). That’s pretty much what you’d expect from a random distribution, a “roll of the dice” system. Even then, you sometimes see people who got mostly good breaks who are unhappy, and people who got mostly bad breaks who still find joy in life. For example, go into a housing project in the core of most any American city and you’ll see a lot of unhappy people who die of drugs, AIDS, shootings, booze, preventable diseases, etc. And yet, you also see people who are happy — poor but happy.

The analogy that I use is that we are all plant seedlings who are put into a pot of soil by some cosmic gardener. There are thousands of different plant seedlings available to this mystical gardener, and there are hundreds of different types of soil mix available to him (or her). The great gardnerer doesn’t really seem to be sure just what kind of soil is best for each seedling (unless she or he really does, but has some greater purpose in mind).

So, some seedlings grow up well and live a long time. Even when the “Big G” gardner doesn’t properly water the plant and keeps it out of the light, it still keeps on growing and renewing itself. But at the same time, a lot of plants just don’t get the right kind of soil for them, and struggle to grow and keep from wilting. With some light and water, they survive. But when things get bad they don’t last.

I don’t know for sure, but it seems to me that some people just find the right place to be, a place where their talents are appreciated by those around them, and likewise, their weaknesses aren’t such a big deal. I know some people like that. They are well liked, generous people who work hard and help others whenever they can. They believe in the idea of “give to live, share to care”. They often gain public attention and are admired for their contributions. These people just seem to have it all; friends, family, admiration, accomplishment, financial success, and satisfaction at having helped others along the way. Sometimes people like that aren’t for real, but very often they are. They are just people who found the right potting soil.

And I also know people on the other end. They also want to give of themselves and share with others, but their talents and temperaments (which can be increasingly be measured and classified by Myers-Briggs, the Enneagram, etc.) just aren’t what the world around them seems to appreciate. They are, in fact, being asked by their environment to give what comes hardest to them, where their weaknesses are. E.g., the artist is asked to be a nurse; the nurse is asked to be a file clerk; the file clerk is asked to be a leader; the leader is asked to be an analyst; the introvert is asked to extrovert, and the extrovert is put in solitary confinement. They don’t do so well, and obviously aren’t admired and rewarded by people around them. They then get discouraged and do even worse, which can spiral them downward into a life of confusion and failure (neurosis, as the shrinks say). Or, if by some fluke they do make good despite their weaknesses, they still feel like a failure in life deep down inside. You sometimes hear about rich and famous people who never were happy, despite all their success.

Some people can break out of their situations and eventually find a place where they shine. It’s as if the plants in my “cosmic garden” analogy have the ability to get up and find another pot where the soil is more to their liking. But fate isn’t always so kind to people stuck in a dead end, and they get discouraged, cranky, and anti-social, then become drunks, junkies or criminals. Or, if they are till nice at heart, they just keep it all inside and get sick and quietly die (a slower and more subtle form of suicide). Quiet desperation, as the British say.

And a lot of us struggle somewhere in the middle. That’s pretty much where I am right now. I’m definitely not in the right pot of dirt, but I haven’t given up yet on finding a better one (although the day is getting late). I’m withering a little, but I’m still alive.

If you’re still young and in college, you have plenty of time to find a place where you can live a good life, where your needs are reasonably taken care of while you contribute to the good of others. There probably is such a place somewhere like that for you. For some, finding it will be easy. But for others, it won’t. And I sympathize with the latter faction. Life is going to be a tough journey for you. But hang in there and keep the faith. The great cosmic gardener planted you and made you sprout, so she or he must have the right kind of soil for you someplace.

PS, You can find out more about the chatauqua idea at

www.univie.ac.at/Anglistik/easyrider/data/zen_and_the_art_of_motorcycle_ma.htm

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Friday, July 18, 2003
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Last summer I got interested once again in Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance and its author Robert Maynard Pirsig. I dug up my dusty old copy of “ZAMM” and gave it a good second read. I then did a Google on Pirsig as to find out what ever became of him. I found out about his second book, “Lila”, which I hadn’t noticed when it came out back in the early 90s. Lila wasn’t quite the hit that ZAMM was. Anyway, I got hold of Lila and read that one too. In between all that, I read various commentary about Pirsig and various reactions to his ideas.

Robert Pirsig sure struck a nerve back in the early 80s with a whole lot of people. Just about everyone who took the literary motorcycle journey with Pirsig in ZAMM said “wow, that was deep; quality, Zen, ancient Greeks, Montana, madness, computers and socket wrenches. It must all mean something and probably relates to my life somehow”.

For those few people who bought Lila and read the follow-up to ZAMM, the reaction was a bit of a head-scratcher. Yes, the ancient Greeks were still there,  »  continue reading …

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Wednesday, July 16, 2003
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Just a random thought or two for a mid-summers night. The other afternoon I was at my mother’s house, doing my laundry, and I found some old “all about” books that I had as a kid. I picked up the one about police and firemen and saw the following quote: “Police and fire fighters are BIG STRONG MEN”. Ah yes, the pre-feminist era.

Here’s another recollection from those days. For some odd reason I was reading a reprint of a magazine story written in the 1940s not long ago, and I noticed that the “voice of the story” directly addresses the reader every few paragraphs using the term “mister”. E.g., “You better believe that joint was hopping, mister”. I guess that the writer didn’t anticipate much of a female audience.

Well, I suppose that it’s best those days are behind us. However, you gotta admit, the “mister” device in the article is rather bracing and insistent. It reminds me of Thunderbirds and Old Spice after-shave and Lucky Strikes and metal Zippo lighters. (Oh yea, speaking of Luckys, I remember a line from one of their old ads: “Lucky seperates the men from the boys, but not from the girls”. Definitely pre-feminist).

Finally, I’ve discovered StarLogo, a non-sexist computer simulation program made available as freeware by MIT. More on that soon!

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